For the VERY first time in my life I can honestly say, "I LOVE MY JOB!" To tell you the truth I never thought I'd be able to say that. Sad huh? I really thought that somewhere back down the road I had taken too many of those alternate turns that took me farther and farther away from things I truly enjoyed doing. The cost of doing what I do now is SO dwarfed by the joy of doing something I really love doing and working with people I truly enjoy working with. The cost of taking this job was purely financial. I had to take a big pay cut from what I used to make, before I took time out to be with Gracyn. To be honest though, I know God will handle the financial details. Plus, the payoff is SO worth the pay cut!
Life is all a matter of choices, isn't it? So many times we have to make sacrifices that sometimes seem SO BIG, in order to find the things that God wants to place in our lives. When we are obedient to Him and to the things He asks of us, the sacrifices we make soon pay off in ways we never dreamed of. That's been the case in my life in SO many areas...not just this job. When He places something in my life that I know I want and I know He wants me to have and I look at what I'd have to give up in order that have that blessing, sometimes giving those things up seems so difficult. But the payoff is SO MUCH MORE! Give up your foolish pride and live with your folks; get an amazing family environment for you and your child at a crucial time in both of your lives. Give up a sinful lifestyle full of sinful influences; get peace, forgiveness, and Godly friendships. Give up a big paycheck; get a job you can't wait to go to everyday. Give up an unhealthy relationship; get more peace than you dreamed existed. Give up yourself, surrender your life to Him; get salvation.
The more I give up, the more I let go of and surrender to God, the more and more He blesses me. It's like I give him a boulder (because in my eyes it is HUGE) and He gives me a mountain in return. I pray that I use all that He blesses me with to HIS glory and His work. I pray that I might continue to decrease so that He may continue to increase. I pray that I continue to have a spirit willing to give up physical things so that He can continue to bless me with the spiritual things. Lord, I pray when I am weak and hold too tightly to things of this earth that You send Your gentle spirit to remind me that I am just passing through and that what you want to give me is SO MUCH MORE than the trinkets of this life can give. Let the trinkets not consume me, CONSUME me Yourself, I will have all that I need and so much more! You came to give me life and to give it to me ABUNDANTLY!
3 comments:
Well, it sounds like you are starting to get the hang of things at work. I'm so glad! I am also so proud of you for seeing that having a job you LOVE is so much more important than the actual paycheck.
Also, let me just say that I love the new look of your page! Very nice.
this post was sooo incredible - i'm so inspired by you (and i just love your new look) - i have been pondering some things that my pride wont let me give up and this has really helped me to push my thoughts in a direction that i know i need to go and decide what needs to be given up. thank you for this post... love ya!
I remember a very brief conversation you and I had a few years back, when other influences began to cause you to question who you were, and were you really the person you were or were you simply a product of your environment and upbringing. I remember thinking how dangereous this could be, but I kept quiet. Well, it turned out to be the train wreck, then God took control of your heart and turned the train wreck into the wonderful life you now describe. Best advice I could give anyone; Always be true to Him, lean not unto your own understanding OR to the understanding of non-spiritual friends, who almost surely, have an agenda that does not put your interests ahead of their's.
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